I meet Me

I met this guy who had the biggest smile on his face and I never understood why. His life seemed so perfect to the outside world.

One day I asked him "Why do you always have a smile on your face? You just seem so happy and you have such a perfect life."

He laughed and then simply responded, "Is that what everyone sees? Well this smile is not real. I paint this on every morning and wash it off when I am alone. I have little to be happy about. I mean things in my life are greater than what it used to be but I still feel void inside."

"Wow. I never knew", was all I could say.

He said, "Of course you didn't. People just think that my life is so perfect and everything. That it's not and it's not. Most days I struggle just to get out of bed. Most days I ask God why am I here."

I woke up and realized that I was the guy being asked these questions in my dream. I am the guy that feels this way....

PS : This was a piece of thought written by me a few days ago, just to flush out my frustration / depression / anger / whatever.... But, sadly, its true.