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मेरी नज़रें जब आप की नज़रों से मिली,

आप की नज़रें शरमा के झुक सी गई. 

हम भूल गए क्या कहना था आप से, 

सांसें चलती रहीं और धड़कन रुक सी गई.

आप का अपने चेहरे से जुल्फों को यूँ हटाना, 

कभी शरमाना और कभी इतराना. 

हर अदा आप की दिल को भा गयी, 

सांसें चलती रहीं और धड़कन रुक सी गई. 

याद करते हैं हम आप को हर वक़्त, 

याद करना अब आदत सी हो गई. 

जब भी याद आई मुलाक़ात आप की जिस वक़्त, 

सांसें चलती रहीं और धड़कन रुक सी गई. 

करते हैं इंतज़ार हम आज भी आप का, 

दिल में है प्यार बेशुमार बस आप का. 

न देर कर अब समय की ज़रा सी कमी है, 

धड़कन तो कब की रुक चुकी, अब चंद सांसें ही बची हैं...

Uncertainity

Sometimes,
I do understand.

Sometimes,
It’s difficult to comprehend.

Sometimes I realize,
Not every why can be answered.

Sometimes,
I wonder why so?

Sometimes,
You need a reason to smile.

Sometimes,
You shed a tear just like that.

Sometimes,
Love can’t be explained.

Sometimes,
Rage is all you know.

Sometimes,
A nest is enough.

Sometimes,
Even caves fail to shelter.

Sometimes,
No one is yours.

Sometimes,
You don’t want them.

Sometimes,
You want a chance.

Sometimes,
You want to miss it.

Sometimes,
‘We’ is what I desire.

Sometimes,
‘We’ is what troubles me.

Sometimes, I feel human being is the most intelligent creature under the sun.

Sometimes, I feel we are fools to believe it!

Heart versus Brain

Current Timeline: 11th June, 2010. 4:30 am.


Location: Home. on my bed, trying to sleep...

This post needs us to go a li'l back in time...

FLASHBACK !

Timeline: 10th June, 2010. 1:45 pm.

Location: Bandra Terminus. Suryanagari Exp. Coach S8. Seat No 53.

That's where I was seated. Fifteen minutes have been passed since the scheduled departure time. And the train just started to move. The compartment I was in, was relatively empty, with just me and a 15-16 year old boy.

Within a few minutes, a couple, around 23-25 years of age, entered the compartment. It seemed that they were married just a few months ago. No husband talks so sweetly to his wife after a couple of years of marriage. ;) Jokes apart, both of them looked so much in love that they weren't even bothered about who else were there in the train.

Although I don't take much intrest in my co-passengers, I couldn't resist myself looking at the way each was caring for the other. As I had to alight at 3:15 in the morning, I thought it'd be better to rest for sometime. I rarely sleep in the train, so I got on the upper berth to give my body some rest.

After getting settled on the berth, my mind started to think about some random things. And as it is said, "Khaali dimaag shaitaan ka ghar", my thoughts were now getting focussed on issues related to heart. It seemed as if my heart has taken over my brain.

And I started to think about love. The questions that popped up in my mind included:

- Do I love someone?

- If yes, why?

- If no, what am I still waiting for?

- Am I forcing myself to fall in love or NOT fall in love with someone?

- If no, am I "GAY"???

While figuring out the answers to the endless questions raised by my heart, my brain almost stopped working. Although being numb-brained, I could very well answer the last question, and fortunately the answer was a big "NO". And before I could gather the answers for the earlier questions, there were a few more ready to be answered:

- Who's that one girl that means the most to me?

- Who's that one girl for whom I can fight with the world?

- Who's that one girl whose one smile wipes off all the sorrows and brings a smile on my face?

- Who's that one girl with whom I can be just "ME"??

- Who's that one girl whom I care about a lot?

Now I was going crazy, almost pulling my hair. Fortunately, I had shifted to upper berth and no one could see me doing that ;) I almost shouted "STOP !". The chai-wallah stopped and asked me if I wanted a cup of tea. Though the order to stop was meant for my brain (or my heart that overcame my brain), I shouted so loud that it was audible almost two compartments away. I apologised to the chai-wallah and asked him to go.

But the heart and the brain continued to think over an unnecessary topic. I was helpless ! And then I started to think about all my female friends in regard to the 'love' da maamla. After going through all the options, I couldn't find anyone for whom I could say "Haan, yehi to hai wo !!"

And then out of nowhere, a girl came to my mind. She was the one for whom all the conditions stated above were true. She was the one !! My heart said instantly, "Haan, yehi to hai wo !!" By that time, my brain had started to regain its senses, and now it started to raise its questions:

- She's your friend. How can she be "THE ONE"?

- How can you think of her like this?

And I was torn between the heart and the brain. This stupid fight between the two just made me realise that I liked... err... I mean I loved someone and I was unaware of it. I was having an unexplainable feeling. Falling in love can never be expressed in words, and I was experiencing it. I had decided that as soon as I meet this girl, I am going to confess my feelings for her. I was elated to have discovered my love ! I was smiling endlessly...

Suddenly, I felt someone calling me and shaking my body. It was my co-passenger actually waking me up. REASON: I was smiling too loud, and he was suspicious of what I was doing ! So it was all a dream. Phew ! Kitna kuchh soch liya tha maine... ;)

Although it was a dream, it was beautiful enough to make me smile till I reached home and collapsed onto my bed. But sleep was no where near me. And I think I should rest this post to an end. Shaayad ab neend aa jaaye.

Waiting for another beautiful dream, I conclude this post !

Raajneeti - Movie Review

Prakash Jha's latest multi-starrer, Raajneeti, is a movie that tries to portray the current political scenario in India. It tries to highlight that politics is now all about money, mind games, dirt and filth !

Prakash Jha has intelligently mixed up a few tried and tested formulae and presented a new dish to the audience. Raajneeti is nothing but a multi-starrer khichdi.

1. The Mahabharata angle:

A major chunk of Raajneeti comes from the epic Mahabharata. If anyone has seen Raajneeti, almost every character has been modelled on some or the other character from the epic.

Ranbir Kapoor's role is based on Arjun who is the key character in Jha's Raajneeti. He is guided by Nana Patekar, whose role is based on Krishna, who guides Arjun (Ranbir) throughout the film. Arjun Rampal's role is modelled on Yudhishthir. Rampal has a soft corner for females while Yudhishthir had a soft corner for gambling. Manoj Bajpai is the Duryodhan. Ajay Devgn (yes, its Devgn, and not Devgan) is the Karna of the film, Arjun and Ranbir's half brother who joins Bajpai's side. Katrina Kaif is almost like Draupadi, torn between Ranbir and Arjun. And not to mention, the whole story has lots of ups and downs like the grand epic Mahabharata.

2. The Godfather angle:

Some of the scenes seem to have been directly taken from the Hollywood flick Godfather. The influence of Godfather on Raajneeti is clearly evident.

3. The Sonia Gandhi angle:

Although the film makers deny this, the politician look (which comes in the end) of Katrina Kaif is clearly based on Sonia Gandhi. The look, the dressing, the gestures, expressions, all of them give an impression of Sonia Gandhi. This angle was added to give the film some unwanted publicity (read :: controversy). But the speech that Katrina Kaif delivers in her maiden political rally seems to be fake. It somehow doesn't give a genuine feel. Audience can not connect to her as a leader. Most of the exhibitors were laughing (or giggling) at that speech.

4. Love Sex aur Dhokha angle:

Politics is all about love for the 'kursi' or power, sex and betrayal. And thats what this film shows.

CONCLUSION:

The movie is well shot, well scripted, well directed, and has some fabulous acting. The first half was excellent, but Jha couldn't carry the same effect in the second half. Ranbir was fab, Arjun was fab (for a change), Nana was superb, Bajpai did a great job. Katrina's role wasn't upto the expectation. Ajay's role also lacked substance. But all in all, its a good movie. Worth a watch.

THE FINAL EQUATION:

Raajneeti = Mahabharata + Godfather + Love Sex aur Dhokha + Sonia Gandhi + Politics

A FEW GLITCHES:

One thing that Prakash Jha showed was a lot of killings of the top leaders of the rival parties. This looked unoriginal. I wish this could really happen in India. Desh ka kuchh to bhala hota. ;)

GFN METER:

On the GFN meter, I'd rate Raajneeti 3.5 on a scale of 5.

I LOVED:

- Manoj Bajpai's acting

- Katrina Kaif's look (in the first half)

- Nana Patekar's fantabulous acting

- the soundtrack, especially Bheegi Si Bhaagi Si and Mora Piya Mo Se Bolat Naahi. I missed these songs in the movie though.

PS: I'm not a professional movie critic, nor I am paid for this review. *sob sob* All the views expressed above are my personal views. Yours may vary.