Things We've Gone Through

I don’t wanna talk…

About the things we’ve gone through...

Because it’d hurt me... And it’d hurt you...

The words still echo inside my head,

And the pain never lets me rest…

The memories haunt me…

The time we were the best of the friends…

And now I see this never ending gap…

Unsaid pain in the turbulence of your voice…

And you warned me…

No one ever knows…

Whether time will makes us strangers,

Or time will make us grow…

And now I think I finally know you…


So... I don’t wanna talk …

About the things we've gone through…

Because it’d hurt me and it’d hurt you…

The Template Contest - RESULTS !!!

Thanks a lot for the response to The Template Contest both on Facebook and the blog. Contrary to my prediction, the public choice is one sided. The overall result is as follows :


As the table suggests, the winner is OLD FRANCE. Wait till October 7th for the template to be put up on the blog ! Thanks again... Congratulations to the winners.... :p

Kambakht ye mohabbat naa hoti

शरारत न होती,
शिकायत न होती,
नैनों में किसी के नजाकत न होती,
न होती बेकरारी,
न होते हम तनहा,
जो जहां में कमबख्त ये मोहब्बत न होती,
न होते ये सपने,
न ख़्वाबों कि दुनिया,
किसी को चाहत की तमन्ना ना होती,
न होती मुलाक़ात,
न फूलों की खुशबू,
यादों में उनकी ये रातें न कटती,
जो न होती मोहब्बत, ये आंसू न होते,
दिल भी न रोता आज ,
तनहा न होता,
दीवानों सी अपनी ये हालत न होती,
जो जहां में कमबख्त ये मोहब्बत न होती.

PS : I have not written it. I got it as a SMS from a friend.

The Template Contest

Guys, it has been a long time since all of us - you, me and hum (nothing to do with the movie....) - have been seeing the present template. And since even I want a change, I have decided a unique way to select the template. Its YOU who will decide. Yes, ultimately its the readers who have to like the layout of the blog. So I leave this on you. Vote for the best possible layout(s).

There are two ways :

1. Facebook Fan Page Album :
You can vote for your best templates here. Hit 'Like' for the template you like. You can 'like' as many templates as you like.

2. The blog itself :
Leave a comment with the name(s) of the template(s) you like. There's a limit of three templates. Even if you mention more than three names, the first three will be considered valid.

Here are the contenders :

COLOURS OF THE SEASON

DAYS OF OLD

DOWN THE LANE

IN THE STORM

OLD FRANCE

RIPPED SCARLET

RISING OF THE DAWN

RUSTY GRUNGE

SEASONS

TECHNO STRIPES

VINTAGE

Voting ends midnight of 20th Sep 2009. Have fun !!

DISCLAIMER : All the templates and/or images are the creations of their respective owners. I do not have any right over them. They were available for free on the net to use.

Hindi Diwas - Sep 14

दिल की तहों को खोलिए जनाब
अजी हिन्दी में कुछ बोलिए जनाब
अपनी जुबां से अनबोला नहीं अच्छा
जुबां की ताकत को तोलिये जनाब

मैं यह जान कर अचंभित नहीं होऊंगा कि आज के दिन के बारे में बहुत कम लोगों को पता होगा । मुझे यकीन है कि ज़्यादातर लोग इस बात से अनभिज्ञ होंगे कि आज 14 सितम्बर को हिन्दी दिवस है । ऐसे ही लोगों की जानकारी के लिए बता दूँ कि 60 वर्ष पूर्व आज ही के दिन भारत की संविधान सभा ने हिन्दी को भारत की राजभाषा के रूप में मान्यता दी थी ।

हिन्दी भाषा अभिव्यक्ति के माध्यम के रूप में हमेशा से ही मेरी पहली पसंद रही है । मैं जितने अच्छे तरीके से अपने आप को हिन्दी में अभिव्यक्त कर सकता हूँ, उतना शायद मैं अपने आप को अंग्रेज़ी में भी नहीं कर सकता । आज आपको लग रहा होगा कि ये बन्दा कहीं सठिया तो नहीं गया है, आज सब कुछ हिन्दी में ही लिखे जा रहा है । तो मैं आपकी जानकारी के लिए बता दूँ कि मैंने इस लेख (post) का शीर्षक (title) मैंने अंग्रेज़ी में ही लिखा है ।

वैसे हिन्दी जैसी सुंदर और सुव्यवस्थित भाषा कोई नहीं है । मुझे हिन्दी से बहुत पहले से ही काफ़ी लगाव रहा है । ये एक विडम्बना (irony) ही है कि मेरे ब्लॉग में मेरी कुछ कविताओं के अलावा हिन्दी के कोई लेख है ही नहीं । खैर, देर आए दुरुस्त आए । आज हिन्दी दिवस के सुअवसर पर ही इसका शुभारम्भ किया जाए ।

हिन्दी एक ऐसी भाषा है जिसे आज कल अपने ही देश में हीन भावना से देखा जाता है । आज कल भारतीय लोग़ हिन्दी के बजाय अंग्रेज़ी को ज्यादा महत्ता देने लगे हैं । सरकारी कार्यों में भी हिन्दी का चलन काफ़ी कम हो गया है । कई सरकारी कार्यालयों में हिन्दी केवल हिन्दी दिवस के दिन ही बोली जाती है और वो भी इसलिए क्योंकि सरकारी आदेश (order) होता है । खैर, इन सब पचडों में न पड़ते हुए मैं आपको हिन्दी दिवस की शुभकामनाएं देना चाहूँगा ।

मेरे मन-मस्तिष्क में विचार तो काफ़ी हैं, लेकिन मैं इस लेख को यहीं विराम देता हूँ और आपको छोड़ जाता हूँ एक कविता के साथ जो मैंने यहाँ पढ़ी थी....

हम कब तक ये हिन्दी दिवस मानते रह जायेंगे
हिन्दी में कार्य करने का सिर्फ़ संकल्प दोहराते रह जायेंगे
हम कब तक माँ को मॉम (mom), बाप को डैड (dad) बनाते रह जाएँगे
हम कब तक अपनी हिन्दी माँ को ठुकराकर
विदेशी अंग्रेज़ी मम्मी (mummy) को अपनाते रह जायेंगे
पिछले वर्ष जब हमने हिन्दी दिवस मनाया
मैंने सच्चे मन से अंग्रेज़ी छोड़ हिन्दी को अपनाया
अपने आप को कुछ कठिनाइयों में ही पाया
मैंने ऑटो रिक्शा वाले को हिन्दी में बतलाया
क्या विश्वविद्यालय ले चलोगे भाई
उसने मुझको समझाया
यहाँ तो कोई विश्वविद्यालय ही नहीं है
यूनिवर्सिटी (university) जल्दी पहुंचना था जब बतलाया,
तो उसने झल्लाते हुए बतलाया
क्यो अंग्रेज़ी में विश्वविद्यालय कहे जा रहे हो
अपना तथा मेरा वक्त बर्बाद किए जा रहे हो
हिन्दी मैं यूनिवर्सिटी कहने से क्या डरते हो
लगता है अपनी हिन्दी भाषा से प्रेम नहीं करते हो

Void

I've always felt the void of a certain someone in my life. Someone who can listen to me everytime, someone whom I can talk to when I'm low, someone who knows me inside out, someone who's always ready to lend a helping hand to me, someone with whom I can share all my thoughts - ALL of them, someone who actually knows me to the core, a shoulder to cry on. This fact should not be taken as my 'desperate need' for a girlfriend. Although I never had a girlfriend, but I don't need one 'coz I'm happily single. In fact, this person could be anyone - a friend, a sibling, a cousin, a net friend - anyone for that matter. The reason there's no such person for me is because of the way I am and perhaps have always been. I am a kind of person who never shares his thoughts with anybody, especially the negative ones. I do not like to trouble others. I do not like to discuss about my life with anyone, no matter how close you are to me.

I know you have a doubt about my last statement that writing blog posts on my life and problems thereof certainly contradicts that statement. But blog posts do not say it all. I know where to draw a line. And besides it, they can have a lot of interpretations. They are just the way YOU see them. It all depends on the readers' state of mind.

I do not mean to say that I do not feel attached to people close to me. I certainly do not mean to say that I don't share anything with my friends, siblings or cousins. I do but again as I said, I know where to draw a line. I have a lot of good people around me including family members, siblings, cousins and friends. But may be its the relation or the bond that I share with them prohibits me from saying what I want to.

Many people suggest that I should be sharing my problems with a few close ones. But I don't feel like. I believe that a problem is MY problem, and why trouble others. I know ninety-nine percent of the readers won't agree to this statement. But that's what I think. So guys, please don't think I don't trust you or something, its just my nature that I don't share my thoughts. Sharing thoughts and trusting someone are TOTALLY different things.

I understand the fact that things are not going perfect for me. Still I feel I should not be treated in the way I was treated in the past 10-12 days. I am tired of being taken for granted. It was really difficult to cope up from the shock. I'll try my best to be the same very shortly. My sincere thanks to all of them who tried to cheer me up, who tried to solve my problem and help me out all these days. And I'm really sorry to those to whom I've been rude 'coz of my mood.

I know I have moved away from the topic. This is not what I initially planned to write. But I guess its okay. I penned down what I wanted to say. And more important is that I wrote something 'coz I wasn't feeling like writing anything.

PS : THANKS for 'bearing' this post.

Transition

I would like to begin this post by apologising to all my readers for my sudden disappearance from the blogosphere. My last post was published on 30th Aug 2009. Under normal circumstances, I don't remain off-the-blog for so long. And for this prolonged absence, something abnormal has to be responsible. And it was something which kept me upset for very long. I'm still upset for what happened. 1st Sep 2009 was the saddest day in my life. I wasn't in a condition to talk, forget updating the blog. Today, I am making a half-hearted effort for my blog and I'm not very satisfied with the quality of this post. I tried to put into words the transition in myself due to that incident and the week that followed.

The week that passed by shook me. I have been completely transformed into a totally different human being after the series of events that took place in the last week. Its not renaissance, its emotional breakdown. And I'm finding it really difficult to cope up with the loss(es) that I suffered.

I have lost my faith, my confidence, my happy-go-lucky nature, my attitude for life, my intrest in life, my smile, my happiness, my sleep, my hunger, and what not. Those who know me better and even those who don't can easily see a drastic change in me. I'm the least concerned about what is happening around me. I'm not at all bothered. Its coz of this, I want to erase all the memories of the last seven years of my life.

I'm God's favourite football. He keeps kicking me every now and then. And I'm fed up of bouncing back from the worst situations. This one was a really major blow to my (over-emotional) heart. And I guess I won't be the same after what has happened to me in the past week.

Signing off (I'm sorry I couldn't write more.....)