Why just ME???

What the fuck?

Why just ME???

There are certain moments in life, when you utter these phrases. And in my case, recently there have been so many occassions when I was pissed off, I wanted to say this... I wanted to say 'LIFE SUCKS.... big time'.... but I couldn't do anything.

Why sometimes do we become so helpless? So helpless, that we can not even react to the situation properly....

My cheerful face, the smile that I wear on it, the friendliness, all just vanishes in a nanosecond. As if, I'm somebody else. This may be similar to what you call a 'Multiple Personality Disorder'. But in fact I'm tired of maintaining and 'faking' my trademark smile.

I'm completely heart broken... totally tired of battling with the tough times... going mad fighting with the situations and trying to remain the same in order to prove the fact that "Whatever happens, I won't change..."

Its not just something which I do, or something which I intend to do, its just the fucking life which keeps on bullying me and challenging me time and again. I'm just tired of facing life single handedly. Life isn't as easy as it seems to be. Life isn't just a piece of cake. Life's difficult. And in my case, its much much more than just difficult.

At times, life kicks you... and it kicks you badly... so bad that by the time u gather strength and courage to get up and recuperate, life's ready to give you yet another blow.
... and that too a big one.

You might think that I'm a loser. I just don't want to face the reality. but I wasn't like this at all. In order to keep myself 'the same', unknowingly I've changed myself so much that today I can't even compare myself to what I was earlier. I've lost much and hence you can call me a LOSER.... I'm just tired of facing the harsh reality... I'm just tired of bouncing back each time from the toughest of the situations...

And this 'patch' of my life has decreased my faith on God... I don't deny the existence of God... but I just wanna ask Him that "WHY ME??? WHY JUST ME???"

Waiting for your answer Mr God...



a GOOD-FOR-NOTHIN' LOSER !!!

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Jitne Bhi Mausam Diye Sab Nam Diye

Jab Tadapta Hai Kabhi Apna Koi

Khoon Ke Aansu Rula De Bebasi
Jee Ke Phir Karna Kya Mujh Ko Aisi Zindagi
Jisne Zakhmon Ko Nahi Marham Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Jitne Bhi Mausam Diye Sab Nam Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Apne Bhi Pesh Aaye Hum Se Ajnabee
Waqt Ki Saazish Koi Samjha Nahi
Be-Iraada Kuchh Khataayein Hum Se Ho Gayi
Raah Mein Patthar Meri Har Dam Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Jitne Bhi Mausam Diye Sab Nam Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Ik Mukammal Kashmakash Hai Zindagi
Us Ne Hum Se Ki Kabhi Na Dosti
Jab Mili Mujh Ko Aansu Ke Woh Tohfe De Gayi
Has Sake Hum Aise Mauke Kam Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

Jitne Bhi Mausam Diye Sab Nam Diye

Zindagi Ne Zindagi Bhar Gham Diye

[Song : Mausam]

[Movie : The Train]

[Singer(s) : Mithoon, Kshitij Taarey]