Abandoned

I shrink into a corner,
I look around,
I try to search for something,
But the dark of night blinded me.
What I look for, I don’t know,
I feel thirsty, I feel deprived,
And the world has abandoned me at this dreaded moment!!

I stumble as I try to stand,
I feel pain, the worst of it,
I want to scream,
But fear stops me.
What I fear, I don’t know.
I feel a pinch here; I feel a blow there,
And the world has abandoned me at this dreaded moment!!

I find no shoulder to cry,
I see no shadow across the room,
I feel no hand on my head,
I hear no words of comfort.
What I need, I don’t know.
I feel empty, I feel weak,
And the world has abandoned me at this dreaded moment!!

I want to escape,
I try to push away the dark,
I struggle to reach the light,
But my will has given up.
What life wants, I don’t know.
I feel isolated, I feel violated,
And even God has abandoned me at this dreaded moment!!


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updated later by Ankit...

PS : This is Garima's first blog post. Shower it with your love (read : comments) :p

Moving On

Change is something which I can not accept easily. I am very slow in moving on. Everything that happens around me leaves a long lasting impact on me. And this emotional fool attitude of mine has hurt me a lot. It has hurt me like hell.

Why can't life just be normal?

Why can't we just be happy?

Why can people not let us be happy?

Why do they have to create troubles?

Why do we feel so helpless?

I can't. I find it really troublesome, really difficult moving on in life. Its next to impossible for me. I don't have words to describe my state of mind. Still I tried to vent out some of my thoughts. May be after writing this I would feel better. May be. May be not. I don't know what I am writing. I don't know why I want to write. Still I need to get a bit light. Still I need to let things out.

To many, I might seem to be a loser. But I'm not. Or may be I am. But you just can't single handedly fight against all odds  Nothing seems to be going my way. Still I manage to smile. Now I'm tired of 'faking' it.

I may be repeating certain sentences, certain things, just coz they are the only ones that are in my mind. I never knew I was such a negative thinker. I never knew I would succumb so easily. Its rather painful fighting life for so long and that too without almost no support.

I don't say I don't have any support, but the way I am, I don't let my heart speak out to anyone. This might be a drawback. But thats the way I am. I can't help it.

I wish I could be a li'l less emotional and a lot more practical !

I really just want to be alone right now. There are things I have on my mind and I need to sort them out. I will let you know when things are figured out. Till then, I need solitude...


PS : I don't want any comments on this AND please DO NOT make any attempt to make me share the reason behind it. It would just add to my woes.

Seekh Liya

अब ज़रूरी ये नहीं साथ निभाओ ही सही,

अब तो तनहाई के संग रहना मैंने सीख लिया.

फूल अब तुम को मुबारक हो, उनकी खुशबू भी,

मैंने अब काँटों की दुनिया में रहना सीख लिया.

जब से जाना कि आंसुओं की नहीं है कीमत,

मैंने उस दिन से आंसुओं को पीना सीख लिया.

जब से तुम ने बुझाई है मेरी उम्मीदों की शमा,

मैंने उस दिन से अँधेरे में रहना सीख लिया.

Happy Diwali

Hey folks ! Wish you all a very Happy Diwali and a prosperous New Year !!

Actually before I begin, I need to apologise for the length of this post. I was busy writing a post for my new blog 'Crapologists'. I need your support for that one too.

Do visit 'Crapologists' and let me know the quality of stuff there (as you did it here).

Wish you and your family a Happy and Safe Diwali !

I'd like to end this post with a personal request : Please please please please please try to AVOID fireworks. 'coz it pollutes the environment a lot (No no no..... I haven't joined any 'green' organisation....) plus its sheer waste of money. Instead use this money to help someone in need. (You want my bank account number? Contact ASAP...)

Yenjaay !!!

Unveling of the Crap

Hello everyone !!

To start with, let me (or rather us) wish u a very Crappy Diwali (oh.... here I go again....) I mean a very Happy Diwali and a prosperous New Year. Actually, I'm trying to concentrate that the basic theme of this blog (intentionally named 'Crapologists') is just crap. I wanted to say Happy Diwali but it seems as if I have had an overdose of the word 'crap'. I hope you bear with this hangover :)

The theory that forms the base of this idea is simple. We cover the fact that talking sense isn't our piece of cake behind the veil that a li'l sarcasm, a li'l laughter and loads of crap is all that is required to live a healthy and wealthy life. (* T&C Apply... lol) This theory is proposed by two great minds - Ankit B. Rathod and Garima Ranawat.

Let me introduce ourself one by one - the Crapologists, thats what we are. Myself, Ankit B. Rathod. I have a one-year-and-ten-days old (at the time of publishing this post) blog 'Good For Nothin....'. Guys, don't try to make a stereotype of me just by the names of my blogs, its just a coincidence. I have started 'Crapologists' with a dear friend of mine, Garima Ranawat, who has no work-ex. She has no blog posts to her credit. And she has only a few comments (only two or three.... that too on my blog) in her jhola (read : bag).

Crap - the dictionary meaning of this word contains a few adjectives : 'nonsense', 'rubbish', 'junk', and the likes. But let me assure you, our crap makes sense. And as our tagline suggests, we are 'making sense out of crap'.

As Garima put it, "A crapologist is a person who specializes in handing out crap but presents in such a way that it appears to be a fact."

Strictly following the definition, the prime goal of Crapologists (we prefer this name... for obvious reasons) is to discuss crap, crap, a li'l more crap, and oh did I forget to mention, crap ! No serious business here !! We crap, you crap, we expect you to crap on our crap :) Confused? Don't be.... 'coz if you get confused in our intro post, I don't think you'll be able to handle our forthcoming posts. All I meant to say that we expect you to comment on our posts. (Didn't I mention the 'crap' hangover earlier?)

The basic idea behind this piece of crap was to present our crap to the audience and know whether it sells or not ! I mean crap sells. When something as disgusting as India TV can survive, I'm sure our crap will do wonders. No competition with India TV in any manner. We can't stoop to that low. Humaare bhi kuchh standards hai. ;)

The golden rule of this blog is : 'Only crap, nothing else !' Simple... Isn't it? What's our USP? Crap. Didn't I mention? So bear with our crap, enjoy our crap, love our crap, hate.... Naah... You can't hate our crap !! We're so sure about it.

Wish us loads of luck and get loads and loads of crap from us :)

PS : Jokes apart, even if we say 'jokes apart', don't expect us to be serious. The crap goes on.... ;)